I am caught in an endless cycle.
I cannot yet type with my mom.
I need prompting to begin any action.
If I want to go sit on the couch I cannot initiate the action of making my body move in the desired direction.
If I want to eat I cannot initiate the movement of my hand towards the food.
Once the food is in my mouth I cannot initiate the chewing process.
It just sits in my mouth.
I need prompts.
Not to give answers or directions, just to make me start doing an action.
This is the case for almost every action.
Even as I type, my teacher must say what do you want to say next in order for me to type the next line.
This is the case for typing.
I simply cannot sit down and start typing without being prompted to begin.
My mom thinks I don't want to type with her.
She thinks I intentionally won't initiate the process because I don't want to.
She thinks I want to hurt her.
I hate how I make her feel.
I cannot change though.
And so every few months we get into a huge argument.
She asserts that I refuse to type with her.
I assert that she won't prompt me and so we never get a fair try.
It is an endless cycle.
I hate it.